Last night was a rough night. We got a phone call at 2 a.m. that Toby had de-statted and turned blue. The nurse was suctioning out his trach, and he was pretty upset. The doctors think he made have had an episode of central apnea, where his brain didn't tell him to breathe, because nothing was blocking his airway. Afterwards he was still struggling so they put him on a ventilator. As of this morning, the ventilator is not breathing for him, but he's receiving the Constant Positive Air Pressure through his trach (or CPAP). He also had some apneic episodes this morning, and so if he waits to breathe longer than 8 seconds the ventilator will give him a breath. (The machine can be set to a ventilator or a CPAP setting). They're wondering if the apnea might be from the results of having surgery yesterday and the anesthesia still wearing off. Toby gave Bruce's mom quite a scare, and I came right away down to the hospital to find out what had happened. They are going to start his food slowly today, into his stomach. It was a rough evening, especially for Lon Nell. Sometimes I wonder how much more we can take. It seems just when things start to look good, he has an episode that sets him backwards. We continue to trust the Lord that He is in control. He continues to ask, "Do you trust me?" I do, Lord, I do. Help me to trust every moment.
By Heather Bjerke — Feb 13, 2007 7:52am
ReplyDeleteCarrie, I am so sorry the night was rough. It sounded a scary. We are praying for your strength and endurance and for Toby to get well so he can go home. I don't know why you are going through this but I am so glad you are trusting God, He has been with you all the way.
Love you so much Heather and Craig Bjerke
By Brenda Rinehart — Feb 13, 2007 10:03am
ReplyDeleteHi Carrie, I am so sorry to hear about your challenges with your baby boy. God has a plan and it is greater than you or Toby. Continue to trust in the Lord with all your heart and know that he will bring you through. I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers. May you find peace and comfort in knowing that you are not travelling this road alone. God bless. Brenda
By Londa Foster — Feb 13, 2007 1:16pm
ReplyDeleteCarrie, a few months ago, Chuck was sick and unable to work for ten weeks. The only time he left the house was to go to medical appointments. He went through all kinds of tests and we didn't know what was wrong with him. The Lord led me to this verse. I put it on my mirror so that I would be constantly reminded of it. It's still hanging there.
"The Lord will give strength to His people; The Lord blesses His people with peace." Psalm 29:11
I pray that today you will experience the strength and peace that only He can give. (P.S. Praise God, Chuck is back at work and feeling better than he has for a long time.)
By Dennis George — Feb 14, 2007 9:43am
ReplyDeleteBruce and Carrie,
Don't know if you got my earlier e-mail but I just wanted to let you know we were thinking of you. Sorry you had such a bad night the other night. It was interesting how you said, "it seems just when things, start to look good, he has an episode that sets him backwards." Those were almost the exact same words as something I read yesterday in Max Lucado's book, "Killing Giants" He said, "Every step forward gets lost in two steps backward. Relationships sour. Skies darken and billow. Your nights defy the sunrise. You've been slumped. Problems are the Sioux. You are Custer and you feel like it's your last stand." That had to be how David felt. "Saul had been getting the best of David, leaving him sleeping in caves, lurking behind trees and leading a ragtag group of soldiers. . . He had been shot by what Lucado calls the "slump gun". It fires, not bullets, but sadness. It takes, not lives, but smiles. It inflicts, not flesh wounds, but faith wounds."
But, fortunately for David and for us, David didn't stay there. I love what Scripture says in 1 Samuel 30:6. "David was greatly distressed because the men were talking of stoning him; each one was bitter in spirit because of his sons and daughter. BUT DAVID FOUND STRENGTH IN THE LORD HIS GOD." He made God his focus and not Saul or even the threat of being stoned by his men. David found hope in HIS GOD, who is the same God we have today!
Anyway take care and stay safe during all this crazy weather. Thinking and praying for you all.