Milestones

After Joshua led the nation of Israel across the Jordan River, God commanded one man from each tribe to take one stone from the Jordan and pile them up where they stayed that night.  Joshua 4:6-7 says, "that this may be a sign among you.  When your children ask in time to come, 'What do those stones mean to you?' then you shall tell them that the waters of the Jordan were cut off before the ark of the covenant of the Lord. When it passed over the Jordan the waters of the Jordan were cut off.  So these stones shall be to the people of Israel a memorial forever."

In the same way, God has taught me to take the time to "remember all the times He's told us loud and clear - I am with you and I'm for you!"...to remember His promises.  During the times of doubt and darkness, we can look back and remember the times He has carried us through.  Even looking back to those dark days in the PICU, I forgot how bad it was - how many times we almost lost him.

Today I want to walk through a few of Toby's milestones.

His first several years were full of doctor's appointments, therapy, bladder infections, G/J tube replacements in Interventional Radiology, sleep studies, CT scans, bladder testing, ventilator checks, blood gases, urine cultures, x-rays, an EKG, loads of antibiotics and blood tests!!  He also had a lot of digestive and belly distension issues.  This is something that would be an overwhelming problem for 6+ years until he got his cecostomy (July 2013).  He had barium swallow studies, upper GI scopes, and even a rectal biopsy testing for Hirschsprung's disease.

When Toby was around 6-7 months old, he finally began to smile - and he hasn't stopped since.  His smile completely lights up a room.  One of my nicknames for him has been "Sunshine" because even on our darkest days, all I have to do it look at his smile and it makes the clouds go away - truly...just look at these pictures:

This was one of his very first smiles!

He loved to fall back on pillows; even  now he loves to go fast and be twirled around; he loves roller coasters.

I can't help but laugh out loud at these pictures.

At first, it felt like Toby was always behind.  He didn't like therapy very much...well you can tell by these photos what he thought about it at first:

Oh my goodness, just look at that face!

Learning to sit up on his own.

 He often had his pacifier in his mouth because he cried all through therapy!

Starting to like therapy; this was before those ZipZac chairs - Help Me Grow therapists brought this out to help him get used to wheeling himself around.

One thing that really bothered me was that he couldn't eat by mouth.  Eating is more than just, well, eating...it can be a social event too.  After being around other mommies of kids with special needs that were similar to Toby's, we began to learn different things.  We heard about Cincinatti Children's Hospital amazing Aerodigestive Team. It's a team of doctors made up of ENT, Pulmonary, GI (Gastro intestinal), plus nurse practitioners, speech and occupational therapists, nurses, etc. that collaborate together to help kids with complex airway and digestive issues.  Toby definitely fit the bill on that one.  So, we made plans to go down there.

At 15 months of age, Toby had a huge list of testing down at Cincy Children's.  It included a FEES test, Upper GI (checking reflux), x-rays, a Bronchoscopy, and an overnight Impedence Probe to look at reflux also.  The biggest findings were Toby had a lot of airway issues - trachealmalacia, bronchialmalacia - basically a floppy airway.  They also said he had a short trachea, but the best news of all was that Toby was SAFELY SWALLOWING by mouth and could start eating.  We started with just tastes of baby food, and then it led to eating a teaspoon, tablespoon, etc.

On the left was the photo I took after three days in Cincy.  In the middle are his feeding tubes.  The white one is the feeding tube going into his small intestine with formula.  The green one was coming from his stomach, and it meant he had safely swallowed the green bananas.  They colored them green so we would know if he was aspirating or not because we would suction green out of his trach. On the right was a few weeks later - trying it out at home.  Those are also green bananas!  Maybe that's why his favorite color is green!

This is what Toby thought of the therapist feeding him, but he gradually progressed to the far right...then this:

Feeding himself for the first time.

Today - eating pancakes!

Another thing they thought they found in Cincinnati was a bowel malrotation, where basically the intestine is twisted around and can possibly cause a bowel obstruction or even death.  They suggested he needed surgery to fix it.  After a lot of back and forth between Cincy and Columbus, we decided to come back to NCH and talk to our own surgeon..  She wasn't so sure he had the malrotation.  She and the radiologist here in Columbus, both thought that it just appeared that way on tests because of the way the J-tube was going into the small intestine. We decided to go ahead with an exploratory surgery anyway, and in the mean time Dr. C (who is now retired) decided to do a nissin, so we could treat Toby's reflux and possibly get rid of needing the J-tube altogether.  In surgery they in fact found that he had NO malrotation, BUT one positive that came out of this was Toby could now have food into his stomach instead of his small intestine.  This meant less time hooked up to the feeding pump - he eventually graduated to just at night, eating baby food during the day, and about 3 years ago got rid of the pump altogether when he began to eat enough pureed food by mouth all the time.

Nissin Surgery; oh my sweet boy.

This was when Garrett said that "they cracked Toby open.

Toby still has a ways to go with his eating.  Just in the last month, I have been able to order him his own kid's meal at Chick-Fil-A. I'm almost felt like crying. He's also been out to breakfast with daddy as a father/son thing Bruce does with the kids, and it's wonderful.  When I lament how many milestones he hasn't reached on time, I just have to look back and realize how far he's come and I am so thankful!